What's the difference between a computer that is hibernating and one that is sleeping? I'm trying to decide which mode my innards are switching to.
I've spent a lot of money the past 36 hrs, on myself and others, in true Black Friday fashion. On and off I thought about what was going to happen with Christmas this year, and then I thought about the decorations in the attic in Jackson. and I feel guilty that they probably won't be used because the manger was inherited from my grandmother and grandfather, and somehow I feel responsible to them to carry on the tradition. And then I think about Frank being alone for the holiday because he'll be on call or there will be a natural disaster that causes him to work twenty four hours a day, and he'll go home to Pete late, unable to even meet me out somewhere to talk..
It feels like misery and then it switches to frustration, and wanting to shake him. There are lots of nights when he falls asleep without texting me goodnight, but there are also nights that he does remember, and my brain of course chooses to forget the times that he is of sound mind enough to say goodnight, and tell me to text him tomorrow. I only remember the negative. It isn't helpful, because then that inaccurate thought gets carried away, like the bows on the kite tail. I've never actually seen those bows on a real kite, but whenever I've seen one illustrated, they're on there. Bonus if you can share what the bows are for.
I'm falling asleep. I'll have to continue this discussion of sleep vs. hibernate again sometime soon.
breathe deeply think of tired thoughts.
The bows are there for the same purpose the tail is there for. The tail is for stabilizing the kite in the wind. The bows just add more weight technically or resistance to the wind putting more pull on that area. It should fly more true with the tail but the bows are not really necessary. Hell the tail isn't necessary either but it can help.
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